Barney Stinson: “When I get sad, I stop being sad, and be awesome instead.”
I won't go home without you
So while I trudge along and read the bible daily in hope of attaining some form of enlightenment of even the smallest degree… I started to ponder about death & heaven. Bah I really don’t wanna die and be separated from everyone whom I love. I cannot imagine just being a soul for eternity. Like omg it’s really unimaginable. Feel like crying everytime I think about this because I’ll inevitably think about the people I love who are not here with us anymore. Was thinking about MJ and still can’t believe he’s dead. Wonder how he is right now… Wonder whether I’ll see him and become his friend after I die. Really wanna meet my sister and find out what kind of person she was.
I wished we would have some form of warning or preview of sorts as to what happens after we die then I won’t be so scared anymore. Sigh.
Hope the world doesn’t end tomorrow… GP lesson today provoked my thoughts cause Mr Kang said he didn’t wanna have a child because he/she would most probably be living in a world of chaos and destruction. I mean he has a point but yeah. Okay enough of this I’m droning on.
Goodnight world. Going to read Tess to sleep. Love you all.
xx
Omg I love this.
Mr New was in an awesomely good mood today and he made the class do sprints and do GST. I like sprinted once and my ankle fucked up so hur. Really needa go to a doctor soon. Took height and weight after that. Apparently I’m 166cm and 54kg. Naiz damn heavy.
Blah Ms Soh kept on staring at me during History la damn scary. Okay she was pissy buttt srsly she is damn cute. Blah had remedial this morning and I was three mins late. Oops. Gotta do another (!!) history essay but that’s due in two weeks time so nvm. They’re forcing us to study for CTs la damn smart!
Wish I could fly away on a balloons. Really wanna go on a hot air balloon…
Been watching telly since 7pm. Damn screwed la but whatever.
Bought fake Raybans from Cotton On that day. They’re pink so yay! School is really fucked up as always. Sigh. I am gonna fly a kite this weekend. I must.
It’s times like these i regret. Regret not appreciating what i once had and everything that came so easily to me. I miss my friends so much. I miss seeing everyone everyday and it sucks so bad that we’re not in the same school anymore. It’s unfair that some get to move on to this next stage together. I wish i were as lucky. Photos bring back soooo many good memories and it breaks my heart to realise how things have change. People do drift, and i’m finally realising it for myself. I’m thankful for those i’ve been able to remain close to and who are always there for me. Some who i don’t get to see often, but every time we meet it’s as if nothing has changed. Just for that split second, it sometimes does feel like old times. But i can’t help but wonder, will all this change one day? I hate change, people who know me should know that.
Omg damn tired!! Went for lunch with Jill and Joan at Subway at Toa Payoh or TPY as Jill calls it. Talked about ALOT of shit… The facial expressions those two give are like omg… Too funny!!!
I wanna be forever young. Haven’t done something fun in sucha long time I think I may have already died.
Had it with people.
What I regret not doing in the US. ):
Eating instant noodles for dinner!! ^^ Damn lazy to get started on work. ): My mother didn’t nag at me for buying my stuff first time ever!!
